Shadow of Love

I have found myself 

Stale of my love for you

For I do not allow myself to 

Have you

My body aches to try

And eject this rotting feeling

But it can't leave…

Don’t be mistaken

I’m not afraid 

I am simply ashamed 

For this thing is not foreign.

I will indeed let it rot inside

Of me, for eternity

It will grow into 

A beautiful, magnificent something but

For now, it will have to remain

Shadowed on the outside 

I apologize to you 

For I keep

Trying to remove the feeling that

Keeps you here, keeps you alive

As if this feeling is not

A part of me

So you will have to deal

With my crumpled filthy version of

This part of myself 

The part of myself I know for sure

Can heal into my own version of love

And 

In enough time, I promise you it will